Bad Day

2 months ago I scheduled the first available appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist. Yes 2 months ago! My doctor called a week out of scheduling to talk to me on the phone and get more info on me. I thought this was a great start. I got to my appointment at 7:45am this morning, way to early in the morning, and they were ready for me. I had blood drawn and then went to my room. The next bit of the appointment gave me a lot of information I needed to hear but did not want to hear. But let me start with the fact I love my new doctor.

Psalm 119:28 My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.

First off let me start out with I found out in 2008 that I have Polycystic ovarian syndrome. This worried me but I have come to terms with it but it is a struggle. My PCOS has caused a lot of problems including infertility. In February I took Clomid to try and have another baby but got 7 negative results on a pregnancy test. I should have called the doctor and had a blood test because I found out today I was pregnant and miscarried. My body is not functioning correctly and could not carry another child. This makes my stomach sick and my heart hurt. I don't want to think about it but I have to. I know in my heart that God will give us another baby if it is his will and I know it will be in his time but I am ready and this makes me sad. It is hard to think about having a living child in your belly and losing it. This is not the first time this has happened to me and I will survive but it is just as hard every time. It hurts no less.

Ecclesiastes 11:5 As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.

My PCOS has caused 4 cysts to form. One on my ovaries, two in one breast and one in the other. They withdrew some fluid from one cyst in one of my breast and told me they were full of insulin. Which is from the PCOS it causes all kinds of problems with your insulin and uses it to form cysts. The Dr's office also called later this afternoon to tell me that when the Dr. was looking under his microscope at what he withdrew this morning it worried him so he sent it off for more tests. I should know the results within 5-7 days. Please pray nothing is wrong.

One of the test they performed was the one hour diabetes test and I failed it BIG TIME! My number was over 300. I did not eat breakfast today and I know shame, shame on me so my Dr. said the results may be off but he says he is 95% sure I have and is scheduling the 3 hour test to confirm. I also have and have had a yeast infection on my chest and in the bend of my leg that I can not get rid of. These are signs of diabetes and he said no matter what I do till it is in control they are not going to go away. So I am making me a exercise plan and we are moving to healthy eating. I am going to stick to the amount of carbs I am allowed each meal and I am going to obey my doctor and start eating all 3 meals a day. I may have got in big trouble for that.

They also tested my thyroid to see how my Hypothyrodism is doing and it is way off. He changed my medicine dosage but told me they may not stay at that. He thinks my diabetes has it off and having the miscarriage could have thrown it off. So we are going to see what happens and adjust as needed.

Also my blood pressure is sky high. It was 160/82. The doctor is thinking my diabetes is causing the high blood pressure and says it should come down as my diabetes gets in control. I am also on blood pressure medicine to help control it and a diuretic.

The last of my bad news is my body is in full menopause. Yes you read it right. At 30 (well in 23 days) my body is in full menopause. I have been having a lot of the symptoms and when I talked to the Dr. on the phone he said it sounded like my body was trying to go into menopause but it is in full menopause. The doctor can reverse it for me to get pregnant with hormone shots daily but I have to get healthy before I can do those. Also the longer it takes to get healthy the more my chances of getting pregnant go down. Right now I am still having periods so that is big hope for us. The doctor also said that I must get pregnant really easy since I got pregnant on the clomid with all that is going wrong with my body.

Please pray for wisdom, strength and courage for us. Please pray that I can get my blood pressure down and my diabetes in control as well. This will be a journey but I am not doing it alone. I have help.

Easter Sunday

Saturday afternoon I cooked and prepared all the fixings for our Easter dinner. We dyed Easter eggs, made a carrot cake, set the table, and fixed all the casseroles. I was so excited to host a holiday function at our home. This is the first time since we got married that we did not go home for a holiday. We did miss our families very much but we also were excited to spend it as a family.

Sunday Morning we woke up and got ready to go to Church! Church was great! Even though it was severe thunderstorms and the power kept turning off and on. Church was great. It was great to be reminded of what God did for us. I am so thankful that he died for my sin and even more thankful that He rose from the Grave and is Alive!

After Church we came home and turned the oven on and changed clothes. Our friends The Doggette's came over for lunch. They brought a ham and and a yummy sweet potato casserole. I had made a couple other casseroles. We cooked everything in the oven while the guys waited around watching the cute kiddo's. After everything was ready we sat and had a wonderful meal together. Tyler was a huge fan of the sweet potato casserole and some of the other casseroles! He had food all over himself but he got a lot in his mouth also. (We were so hungry I forgot to take pics of the food! HA!)

After lunch Tyler found his Easter basket. Jon ask if he could get into it and we decided to let him have it. He did not want anything else in his basket except his chocolate bunny. HA! He ate the whole thing in one shot. The boy loves chocolate, LOVES chocolate! Then the guys went up to playroom to hide eggs for the boys since it was raining outside. This was a egg hunt fail. Too many toys in the play room so it was a huge distraction and they would not find any of the eggs. Good thing was they had fun playing with the toys so who cares!

So overall we had a great day fellowshipping and eating with great friends and celebrating are Lord Jesus Christ. Later that night Tyler did get into his basket and played with everything.

Wordless Wednesday

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Menu Plan Monday

Menu Plan Monday

So the whole end of my week changed! It happens and I went with the flow of it! Thursday night was suppose to be Spaghetti and Meatballs and after the long day I had and grocery shopping I stopped and picked up Wendy's. Yep it happened! Then Friday stayed the same because we had the ball. Saturday night I was going to do a Low Country Boil but Jon wanted to do it on Sunday and wanted spaghetti and meatballs. Well plans changed when Tyler fought his nap and finally fell asleep in the stroller. We had dinner at the food court so he could sleep some! And just in case you were wondering Sunday changed as well. HA! It was a long day especially for Jon so I made him spaghetti and meatballs that he had been wanting. So my weekly menu for this week has been an adjustment but here it is.

Monday

Paula Deen's Italian Meatloaf, Green Beans, and Rolls

Tuesday

Paula Deen's Stuffed Pork Tenderloin with Apples

Wednesday

Chicken Parmesan with Pasta and Salad

Thursday

Baked Flounder, Zucchini

Friday

Orange Chicken, Squash casserole, and Sugar Snap Peas

Saturday

Dr. Pepper Chicken, Squash casserole(leftovers), and zuccini on grill

Sunday

Easter Sunday

Some Favorite Dresses

So I am in love with Judith March and have been for a while now. I have one dress and would love many more. Here are some that I would like for summer and for fall and football season. If you have never looked at her stuff she makes many dresses for football season, especially for Auburn and Alabama. Check her out http://www.judithmarch.com/

I need this one for weddings this summer!

How Cute would this be with some cream leggings this spring?

Football season Outfits! All to die for!

Paula Deen’s easy blueberry skillet coffee cake - Food - Today: Food: Recipe - TODAY.com

Paula Deen’s easy blueberry skillet coffee cake - Food - Today: Food: Recipe - TODAY.com: Recipe: Easy blueberry skillet coffee cake Paula Deen Ingredients 2 tablespoons unsalted butter 2 tablespoons light brown sugar One 12-ounce tube buttermilk biscuits 1 cup blueberries, fresh or thawed frozen Streusel topping 1/4 cup slivered almonds 1/4 cup granulated sugar 2 tablespoons butter 2 1/2 tablespoons all-purpose flour 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon Preparation 1. Preheat the oven to 375 F. To make the streusel, combine the almonds, sugar, butter, flour and cinnamon in a food processor and pulse until large crumbs form. 2. In a 9-inch cast iron or other ovenproof skillet, cook the butter and brown sugar over medium heat until melted. Arrange the biscuits in a single layer in the pan; scatter the blueberries over the biscuits and the streusel topping over the berries. Bake until the biscuits are golden and a tester inserted into the center of a biscuit comes out clean, about 30 minutes. Serving Allow to cool slightly and serve from skillet.

Military Ball Dress ?'s

Friday night we have a Brigade Ball to go to! I am kind of excited but super nervous because I have NOTHING to wear! I am going to Nashville Thursday to find a dress! Pray I find something and that it does not have to be taken up or hemmed! So here are some dresses that I like and think will look good on my figure.

1. My favorite dress but not necessarily my hubbys.

Picture from dillards.com

2. I like this dress as well especially since it would not be too long.

Pictures from dillards.com

3. I like the look of this dress and I like the grey and it comes in blue.

Picture from DavidsBridal.com

4. I really like the look of this dress and it comes in several color choices so I can find one to match his blues perfectly.

picture from DavidsBridal.com

5. This dress is so fun! I like the flow of the skirt and I want it in the royal blue color it comes in as well. This would be so fun and the rolled hemmed gives me a hope of high heels making it not to long for me.

picture from DavidsBridal.com

6.I like the flowers around the bust and the one shoulder. I am worried about how areas of my body will fit in certain areas of this dress.

picture from DavidsBridal.com

7. This is a dress I love it is also the most expensive of the dresses. But it is gorgeous. The color I am a little worried about. It will have to be the most perfect color pink to look right with his blues.

picture from DavidsBridal.com

So what do you think? Which is your favorite one?

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

Tyler is really into feeding his self these days! Yes he gets messy but I don't care he is learning! Clothes can be washed and so can the floor. We have a Mocha who loves the mess! HA! So I know this drive some people crazy but we do it! He is so excited about it! I take off all his clothes and in the high chair he goes. I open his favorite yogurt and had him the container and a spoon and off he goes! He is doing so much better and he is so proud of his self! I love seeing his face light up!

What we did Today

This is what I did, I updated my calendar, Worked on my Menu's, Made a grocery list for this week, and went through some of my cookbooks. I feel accomplished. I just wish I had my cell phone to make the phone calls that I needed to! Boo! Tyler played on the porch in his Cozy Coupe and was a happy little boy! I love being able to be at home with him and us spend time together! I feel so blessed that my husband works so hard to allow me to do this!

Couch to 5k Day 1

So last night I was disappointed in myself because I was suppose to start couch to 5K and I did not. I still had time but I didn't! I put it off just like I always have. A friend came over for lunch and the kids played together till nap times. Jon was home and we watched a movie together. I should have exercised but no I watched a movie. It was not a movie I desire to ever see again for that matter. Tyler also did not nap. Why would a tired 19 month old nap? He cried and whined. I should have exercised to release the frustration but instead I put it off like every other time. However today I decided I was doing it! I have to get back in shape. I had lost what I gained with Tyler but I have not lost what I needed to lose before I had Tyler. Plus now I have a extra 13 pounds from hormone supplements. Which by the way I only gained 19 with child! Driving me crazy. My clothes are tight and I want this gone. I want to walk in my closet and nothing fit! I am doing it! I am losing this weight! I am getting back in shape! I want to be healthy! I have several health problems that need me to lose this weight. So here we go! Today I did it I did couch to 5k Day 1! I am proud of myself! We did Zumba Sunday and today is the day to do it as well and I am trying to get hubby inspired to do it with me as I type this!

Menu Plan Monday

Okay so two weeks ago I posted this on a Monday. Menu Plan on Monday Fail! Oh well I had them all planned and in my fantastic Mom Agenda just not typed out on the computer. I actually have the next three weeks on paper and in my Agenda. Proud of my self for that one.

Monday

I had Sweet and sour chicken planned. I had a mix and when I got it out to fix it I opened the first can and it looked really funny and smelled funny so I looked and it expired March of 2008. Yeah that was a huge FAIL! So to the trash can it went and I washed out the pan and went on to trying to figure out something else to do. Hubs wanted to eat leftovers and get them out of the fridge and I was happy to clean out the fridge.

Tuesday

Chicken Cordon Bleu minis, sugar snap peas, and red pototoes

Wednesday

Steak Strips grilled, Fried Rice, and White sauce

We love making our version of Japenese Hibachi food!

Thursday

Spaghetti and Meatballs with a Cream Sauce

Hubby is excited about this one. He loves meatballs and is excited to carb overload before his big 12 mile ruck march.

Friday

Military Ball so no cooking for me!

Saturday

Low Country Boil, Coleslaw, and Cornbread

Sunday

Country Fried Steak, Homemade Biscuits, Mashed Potatoes

Sad

Okay so if you know me then you know I always have my iphone on me! I have everything on it! I have everyones phone numbers, addresses, to do list, grocery list, I blog from it, I take pictures of everything from it! I live from it! The sad news is mine turned off last night and will not turn back on! I am really missing it today! I want to get on twitter and it is not the same as on the computer. I want to post the cute pictures that were on it of my adorable child. I want to play words with friends with my fabulous husband. We have really grown to love playing that with each other and normally have at least three games going at a time! Bad thing is I was finally beating him on two games. Like he will not catch up with me, beating him! Man! So today I am morning the loss of my phone and realizing how much I rely on that thing! Thank goodness it was not during the deployment I would have DIED!

So goodbye Iphone 3G and I will be going to get a new Iphone 4 very soon!

Easter

Last weekend I decorated for Easter. Either I do not have near as much as I thought I did or I have lost a lot of it! All I had was things for my dining room table. I was a little sad but that room looks really cute!

New Tricks

Tyler decided he could climb up his slide, sit down by his self and slide down by his self. When did my baby become a little boy? He is growing up so fast! I was so proud of him. And yes we still have pajamas on at almost lunch time and yes he has yogurt all over his face. It happens. We were to busy having so much fun playing out on the deck on this beautiful day that was suppose to be not so pretty!

PRAISE THE LORD

Recipe Friday

Sugar Cookie Bunnies - Martha Stewart Recipes:

Yield Makes about 1 dozen

Add to Shopping List Ingredients

2 cups all-purpose flour, plus more for surface

1/2 teaspoon baking powder

1/4 teaspoon salt

1 stick (1/2 cup) unsalted butter, softened

1 cup granulated sugar

1 large egg, room temperature

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

Directions

Sift flour, baking powder, and salt together into a bowl. Beat butter and sugar with a mixer on medium-high speed until pale and fluffy. Beat in egg and vanilla. Reduce speed to low. With machine running, gradually add flour mixture; mix until combined. Shape into a disk, and wrap in plastic. Refrigerate until firm, at least 45 minutes (or up to 3 days). Preheat oven to 325 degrees. Transfer dough to a lightly floured work surface. Roll to 1/8 inch thick. Using a 5-inch-tall bunny-shaped cookie cutter, cut out cookies. Space 2 inches apart on parchment-lined baking sheets. Reroll scraps, and cut out. Refrigerate until firm, about 15 minutes. Bake until golden, 12 to 15 minutes. Let cool completely on sheets on wire racks.

Cookies can be stored in airtight containers at room temperature up to 1 week."

Recipe and Picture from MarthaStewart.com

Tyler is sick

So Monday night Tyler was running a low grade fever, we gave him Tylenol and thought it was teething. PS, off the subject, but does teething ever end? Back on track, Tuesday morning when Tyler woke up he still had a fever and had a little cough. As the day went on he got really bad. He started wheezing, struggling to breathe, poop issues, coughing, still fever, super whiney, and clingy. So I called to try to get him a appointment and was told the only way I could get one would be through the advice nurse. No answer so I left a message then waited, no return phone call so I called back and had to leave another message. Two and half hours later they finally called and had one appointment at 3:30. So we got ready and headed out the door. I got there about 20 minutes early and signed in. The place was worse than a zoo. I have never seen so many kids in one office like that. There was one little boy who wanted to scream at the top of his lungs and his mom was busy texting on her phone. Fantastic, or not! Finally some chairs close to the fish tanks opened up and I made a bee line for them. Tyler loved seeing the fish even though he did get a little upset that he could not touch the fish. He loves carrying around fish at home and did not understand why he could not touch these either. Tyler was getting restless and his appointment time had come and gone by 45 minutes now so I went to the desk to check and was told the doctor we were seeing was running a hour and 45 minutes behind but we should be getting a room soon. Tyler was sleepy and sick and was a crying mess. I was trying all kinds of tricks to make him feel better! Another 45 minutes later we got called to a room finally! The nurse took his temperature, weighed him and wrote down his symptoms and said the dr would be in soon. We waited forever. I finally was able to bounce enough to get Tyler to fall asleep. We waited a hour for the doctor to come to the room. And of course she woke him up to check him out. After looking in his ears she told me he had a double ear infection. She also said this is probably the reason he has not been sleeping well for over a week now. Fantastic. She gave us a prescription, checked his O2 stats and out the door we were. We rushed to the pharmacy downstairs to get his prescriptions filled because they closed in 5 minutes. They were super fast and we were out the door and on our way home. Poor guy. Prayers are appreciated. We are hoping this heals fast and does not turn into a respirtory infection.

Exercise

Okay its time to get back started exercising regularly. All these hormone supplements have brought on a extra 13 pounds that I did not need to start with. I am going to start the couch to 5 K program. I tried this once before and it worked pretty good but I did not keep up with it! So here it goes! Goodbye Belly weight and hello to a more healthy lifestyle!

I plan on using my trusty Iphone to help me with this. I have the couch to 5 K app on my phone and it tells me exactly what to do so I plan on listening and obeying!

I hope to keep you all updated with how I am doing and if I am keeping it up.

I also plan on trying to do Zumba on Tuesdays and Thursdays! I love doing Zumba so hopefully I can keep it up. I am also hoping I can get my hubs to do it with me! We could have so much fun dancing around while exercising together also!

So I am hoping and praying that I can get myself on a good routine and get back healthy again! I have a sweet boy that needs a healthy mommy!