Bad Day

2 months ago I scheduled the first available appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist. Yes 2 months ago! My doctor called a week out of scheduling to talk to me on the phone and get more info on me. I thought this was a great start. I got to my appointment at 7:45am this morning, way to early in the morning, and they were ready for me. I had blood drawn and then went to my room. The next bit of the appointment gave me a lot of information I needed to hear but did not want to hear. But let me start with the fact I love my new doctor.

Psalm 119:28 My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.

First off let me start out with I found out in 2008 that I have Polycystic ovarian syndrome. This worried me but I have come to terms with it but it is a struggle. My PCOS has caused a lot of problems including infertility. In February I took Clomid to try and have another baby but got 7 negative results on a pregnancy test. I should have called the doctor and had a blood test because I found out today I was pregnant and miscarried. My body is not functioning correctly and could not carry another child. This makes my stomach sick and my heart hurt. I don't want to think about it but I have to. I know in my heart that God will give us another baby if it is his will and I know it will be in his time but I am ready and this makes me sad. It is hard to think about having a living child in your belly and losing it. This is not the first time this has happened to me and I will survive but it is just as hard every time. It hurts no less.

Ecclesiastes 11:5 As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.

My PCOS has caused 4 cysts to form. One on my ovaries, two in one breast and one in the other. They withdrew some fluid from one cyst in one of my breast and told me they were full of insulin. Which is from the PCOS it causes all kinds of problems with your insulin and uses it to form cysts. The Dr's office also called later this afternoon to tell me that when the Dr. was looking under his microscope at what he withdrew this morning it worried him so he sent it off for more tests. I should know the results within 5-7 days. Please pray nothing is wrong.

One of the test they performed was the one hour diabetes test and I failed it BIG TIME! My number was over 300. I did not eat breakfast today and I know shame, shame on me so my Dr. said the results may be off but he says he is 95% sure I have and is scheduling the 3 hour test to confirm. I also have and have had a yeast infection on my chest and in the bend of my leg that I can not get rid of. These are signs of diabetes and he said no matter what I do till it is in control they are not going to go away. So I am making me a exercise plan and we are moving to healthy eating. I am going to stick to the amount of carbs I am allowed each meal and I am going to obey my doctor and start eating all 3 meals a day. I may have got in big trouble for that.

They also tested my thyroid to see how my Hypothyrodism is doing and it is way off. He changed my medicine dosage but told me they may not stay at that. He thinks my diabetes has it off and having the miscarriage could have thrown it off. So we are going to see what happens and adjust as needed.

Also my blood pressure is sky high. It was 160/82. The doctor is thinking my diabetes is causing the high blood pressure and says it should come down as my diabetes gets in control. I am also on blood pressure medicine to help control it and a diuretic.

The last of my bad news is my body is in full menopause. Yes you read it right. At 30 (well in 23 days) my body is in full menopause. I have been having a lot of the symptoms and when I talked to the Dr. on the phone he said it sounded like my body was trying to go into menopause but it is in full menopause. The doctor can reverse it for me to get pregnant with hormone shots daily but I have to get healthy before I can do those. Also the longer it takes to get healthy the more my chances of getting pregnant go down. Right now I am still having periods so that is big hope for us. The doctor also said that I must get pregnant really easy since I got pregnant on the clomid with all that is going wrong with my body.

Please pray for wisdom, strength and courage for us. Please pray that I can get my blood pressure down and my diabetes in control as well. This will be a journey but I am not doing it alone. I have help.